amalthya: (top of the world)
I've tried to find the motivation and the time, more importantly, to get back onto the Livejournal bandwagon. According to their stats, people blog much less after they are 26. Well, I'm 28. I'm just late. Isn't that the norm for me?

According to good old Livejournal, I haven't blogged in about 1.5 months. So I'l start from there, and give you some photo accompaniment, too.

And I've been sitting on this entry for nearly a month. Sad, eh? No more excuses.

Johnny & Azania's Wedding )

My New Computer )

Chagi )

Adam Updates )

* Lauren's birthday and CU friends

* Reviews: Indiana Jones and the Temple of the Crystal Skull

* Reviews: The Incredible Hulk vs. Iron Man

* Visiting Ohio & Chilling with [ profile] justbeast

Hurricane Harbor )

* + 2 Cats, -1 Cat +1,000 Cat Abandonment Sympathy

* Dad's moving out

* Unpacking the apartment - potential dates for a housewarming

* Back and Forth to Maryland

* Link to MLOAD


It appears that I've run out of steam, but I will leave the list of things I meant to talk about with the hope of writing about them all in the future.

I will certainly mention now, though, that at the end of September/early October, I'm going back to Congo. It doesn't mean I won't finish my studies, or that I'm leaving New York for good, or anything else. It just means that I have the most incredible opportunity to do masters/senior thesis /doctoral dissertation-level research that I've been CONSUMED with preparing these last couple weeks. I'll be part of the Wasmoeth Wildlife Research team, but pretty much solo on this project. I'll also be helping to take care of and rehabilitate 2 orphaned chimpanzees.

The extra-crazy part? Adam wants to come with me. Nuts, right? We'll see if it actually happens.

Oh, and while my regular journal might stay only-sporadically updated, remember that I'm pretty rigorous about posting to the community [ profile] thegarlicbite and I started:

[ profile] mylife_onceaday

So, if you're keen to see what I'm doing while I'm not updating here, check out:

My Daily Photos There

And I do promise to update more. But for now, I'm running on low battery power and low energy!
amalthya: (lichtenstein)
I don't ever promise to know everything. But I'm good at learning more and finding connections and becoming the best, most informed support system that I can be.  Something happened this week that made me wake up, realizing that should I continue along this path, I will be responsible for something/one that I'm incredibly ignorant about.  The more time I spend on this path, the more I want to continue on it, and I did have a sudden panic that I needed to be more informed.

And there's something comforting about research in general.

It all feels very fixed and secure, and as I highlight the important bits in fluorescent orange, I feel more in control.  Plus, smarter.

Anyway, it's nice to take one's school skills and apply them to real life.  Because usually, that never happens.  (HA!)

Edit:  Do you ever find it difficult to write a personal entry on a computer in a lab when the guy to the left of you alternates between cruising on OKCupid, looking at male nudes, and watching Big Brother 8 on Youtube?
amalthya: (Tyrol Fangirl)
Had a nice dinner with [ profile] sinboy and I was given more reasons to think that Don Hertzfeldt should be my hero.

On our way back from dinner, [ profile] sinboy was mentioning how contented he was with his life, because he felt like he'd hit all of the bases. And we walked up the hill, and I thought about it, and I realized that I have so much to do.

For all the living I've done -- the places I've been, the things I've seen, the chimps I've tickled...

Well, I don't really have anything to show for it all. Photos? Videos? Funny stories? Amoebas? It's sort of like going 10 giant steps forward, but walking in place.

I guess too I survey my life and see how much I have to do and finish. School looms like this enormous mountain to be climbed. I've really been remiss in my studies of late. [ profile] woofa is coming to visit me from London this weekend, too. But overall, I think it behooves me to get back to the grindstone and study/catch up/etc.

I came back to the US and back to Columbia because I wanted to. I do actually love my classes. So, after this very exciting two days off on Monday and Tuesday, I will hopefully feel recommitted.

There's so much I want. I just don't even know where to start, sometimes.
amalthya: (bad day)
Sunday 3:46 pm

I'm sort of glad that I had my mental "goodbye" yesterday evening, because the new day of Sunday feels so strange, having a third person here.

The chimps seem to be responding too. I'm a snuggle mother -- calm, relaxed, grooming -- and I don't really play hard and rough with them -- I'd prefer if they played with each other. Not only does it save me potentially lost fingers and thumbs, but I feel like it's a more natural interaction for them.

Liz is wonderful with the chimps, but her approach is much more of a rough and tumble playing one. I'm obviously not sure if the chimps reflect that change in their behavior, but yesterday, Etaito had tons of calm moments where he'd come to me for some grooming.

Today, though, he's on a tear and I've received more bites today than I have in the last two months. Hard ones too. My normal tactics of hooting to show that it's hurting isn't working either. He's so angry. Does he know?

If anything it's making it easier to go, but at the same time it makes me slightly reminiscent for the time when it was "just us" and I didn't feel so out on a limb.

... So to speak.

Liz and I had a nice lunch at the Hotel Nyira. My dad called with Skype and finalized things for his trip here -- Wednesday!!

Anyway, it does feel like I'm "handing over" today and I almost just wish that it went faster.

I've also talked tons with Liz about "the life" out here, and seeing her intensity and self-started projects and disinterest in any sort of "real" life (whatever that really is) makes me wonder whether, for the long term, if this is what I really want.

Sure, Delphine had a Brad. Rita has a Jeremie. But 90% of the other people out here have absolutely sacrificed love, family, children, to live this path. Maybe it's my incredible love for the chimps, but uh, I really know that I want children (I almost just wrote "chimps" ... hehe)

And a family. I don't have this intense push to save everything, or everyone, or initiate projects on my own. Do I absolutely love being here, and making a difference? Yes. Without a doubt.

Either way, this last week has been really illuminating. And now, it really is time to go.


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