amalthya: (Tyrol Fangirl)
2006-11-02 08:18 am

Something to Show For it All

Had a nice dinner with [livejournal.com profile] sinboy and I was given more reasons to think that Don Hertzfeldt should be my hero.

On our way back from dinner, [livejournal.com profile] sinboy was mentioning how contented he was with his life, because he felt like he'd hit all of the bases. And we walked up the hill, and I thought about it, and I realized that I have so much to do.

For all the living I've done -- the places I've been, the things I've seen, the chimps I've tickled...

Well, I don't really have anything to show for it all. Photos? Videos? Funny stories? Amoebas? It's sort of like going 10 giant steps forward, but walking in place.

I guess too I survey my life and see how much I have to do and finish. School looms like this enormous mountain to be climbed. I've really been remiss in my studies of late. [livejournal.com profile] woofa is coming to visit me from London this weekend, too. But overall, I think it behooves me to get back to the grindstone and study/catch up/etc.

I came back to the US and back to Columbia because I wanted to. I do actually love my classes. So, after this very exciting two days off on Monday and Tuesday, I will hopefully feel recommitted.

There's so much I want. I just don't even know where to start, sometimes.