This was actually a fabulous response -- a lot of what I was looking for -- good advice, good perspective.
Regardless of anything else, I don't think I'd ever forgive myself for "leaving early" out of homesickness or whatever -- I doubt that I'll burn out necessarily and I think that home, as you say, will certainly seem less fabulous once I'm actually there.
I had the same concerns about design -- my mom did programming and got totally burned as technology changed and outgrew her skillbase. So preferably, I'd like to keep tech-stuff in my free, dork time.
I'm worried that I'll go into Primatology and end up on this endless path of masters, phD, and just never be finished, never have time to do anything else, and just be generally miserable and "stuck"... Like, I know that mikestuy is unhappy all the time, but feels too committed to medical school to just abandon it. And, to keep with my "being happy" resolution, doing something that doesn't make me happy on purpose is worrying.
I also have lovely dreams of having a car, and a job and "nest-ish" things in Maryland... or really, anywhere. I also have grave concerns about returning to New York to finish school (where it would really be ideal for me to)... I think you can easily imagine why.
And thank you for reading my posts at all - it makes me feel honored whenever someone says that to me, because I know they're... bulky.. to say the least ;)
I *am* getting into a routine here, certainly, and getting a lot done. I guess I just am reacting to the extremity of the conditions (ie NO social interaction for most of the time).
And I'm sure your card WILL eventually come, right!? It's gotta :D I have faith! Anyway, thanks so much for the support. Believe it or not, it did help my decision-making process (which I never ever leave to the last minute, unfortunately :P)
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Re: Discussing my vote
Date: 2006-01-18 11:37 am (UTC)Regardless of anything else, I don't think I'd ever forgive myself for "leaving early" out of homesickness or whatever -- I doubt that I'll burn out necessarily and I think that home, as you say, will certainly seem less fabulous once I'm actually there.
I had the same concerns about design -- my mom did programming and got totally burned as technology changed and outgrew her skillbase. So preferably, I'd like to keep tech-stuff in my free, dork time.
I'm worried that I'll go into Primatology and end up on this endless path of masters, phD, and just never be finished, never have time to do anything else, and just be generally miserable and "stuck"... Like, I know that
I also have lovely dreams of having a car, and a job and "nest-ish" things in Maryland... or really, anywhere. I also have grave concerns about returning to New York to finish school (where it would really be ideal for me to)... I think you can easily imagine why.
And thank you for reading my posts at all - it makes me feel honored whenever someone says that to me, because I know they're... bulky.. to say the least ;)
I *am* getting into a routine here, certainly, and getting a lot done. I guess I just am reacting to the extremity of the conditions (ie NO social interaction for most of the time).
And I'm sure your card WILL eventually come, right!? It's gotta :D I have faith! Anyway, thanks so much for the support. Believe it or not, it did help my decision-making process (which I never ever leave to the last minute, unfortunately :P)